to do over or not to do over that is the question!

Today has been one of those days where you wonder....what ever happened to do overs? When we were younger - or maybe I shouldn't speak for everyone, when I was younger I remember do overs.

A bad pitch in softball practice, do over....a rough start to a game of tag....do over.....a messed up art project... do over. You know do overs...what ever happened to those. Is it just another thing we loose as we grow up and get responsible. Or is it simply as an adult who would want to do this stuff over.

It's been a day, in case you can't tell. And the more I think about it, the more I'm glad I don't have do overs. Cause days like this where you are way more the bug then the windshield call for simply being over. The day is done and so am I.

And to think, I remember I couldn't wait to grow up. Such an adventure. Don't get me wrong somethings are totally worth growing up for, but there are days where I wonder what the heck was I thinking.

The "practice" of medicine....

So this weekend my son, jewel of my life, spiked a fever. When I say spiked I mean he went to bed fine on Friday no inclination that he wasn't feeling well and then BOOM he woke up on Saturday morning with a temp. Now, I'm told by the people who "practice" medicine that 99-104 isn't really anything to worry about. So, we went about our day after giving him Tylenol and waited to see what would happen. This boy almost never gets sick. He's the healthier of my two, so I was concerned with the fever but waited. By the evening his temp after three doses of Tylenol over the day was still 101.5. I called our "health professionals" and was told he needed to go to urgent care or the ER. So off to the ER we go as all the urgent cares around me closed at 4pm and it was now 6pm.

At the hospital things proceeded in a "practiced" fashion. My son's temperature was taken at triage and the first time she took it it registered 98.4 degrees. I had just taken his temp before we left the house and it was 101.5 there was NO way in 1/2 an hour it had gone down that much. So, the nurse took it again this time using an under the tongue thermometer and it registered at 102. Just slightly higher...right! Any way moving on...

We go to see a nurse to be triage yet again. I am told that the fever of 102 is really nothing to worry about and that we would still see the doctor, but there really wasn't anything wrong with him. 102 fever and NOTHING is wrong...I so don't think so, but again I am reminded to be calm and that a fever is a fever. It means the body is fighting something but its not that bad till 104.

We get in to the doctor. She decides to test for flu and strep and asks me if he's been given anything since we got there. Nope they didn't give him anything in the two hours we've been here. Huh, she says well let's take his temp and give him some Motrin. 103. So the fever is not going down. She wants to break the fever, do the tests and see where we're at. Temp in an hour 104. Temp in two hours 104.5. No flu, No strep, but there's a 10% error rate with the flu test and a 3-5% error with the strep. Lets check his white cells and see if we can find an infection. White cell test and Tylenol at three hours from the Motrin. An hour after that the fever goes down to 103. An hour after that we get down to 101.9. White Cells are fine, no infection. So, what does that mean? Could be a virus......but we can't test or do anything for that.

Yeah for the "practice" of medicine.

As a side note whatever it is or isn't I have, my dad has and my daughter now appears to have. We are all down for the count with fevers and other issues....but hey we'll "practice" at being sick so the professionals can "practice" at medicine.

Please excuse the harshness of this post but I am really sick with this nonexistent whatever.

Times they are confusing.

I find myself in a spot of contemplation. I'm not sure why or what provoked this un-natural state but here I am. What is the blogger droning about now you may ask. Well if I knew you'd know :-) . . . here's list of what it might be for those interested:

Moving - again. I am SO lucky. I feel for my poor children, but alas it is inevitable. I along with many many MANY others have made questionable choices during the "boom" and now find myself, and my loved ones, paying for it. Does this make me a bad person? Does it make me a good person who made bad choices? Does it really matter? Is it one of those situations where "It is what it is" fits perfectly and one should not dwell, but move forward with vim and vigor? Or should one dwell so as to not make repeated mistakes again? Is it genetic? Is it learned? What is it? Does it matter? We are healthy (relatively), happy (I hope), fed, clothed, housed (moving but can afford to put a roof over our heads) and working. Perhaps with all those blessings the rest is just that. The rest.

Sharing information - what does that mean. Well, I am a very paranoid individual, I think mostly due to the work I preform or the overly cautious nature of my being. I worry that too much personal information may or may not go out via sites that I choose to belong too. I wish to share with family who are far away, and with friends who are close by, but how much is too much and how much is safe or not safe. IE, pictures of my children, do I post them do I not post them? Is it safe to post them, is it crazy to think anything is "safe" via the world wide web and freedom of surfing the Internet? How paranoid is too paranoid? Also, my beloved (or not) blog. How many do I share it with? Do I want send it to others be them friend, family or foe? Or do I keep it un-published to them and if they stumble upon it great and if they don't then they don't? Can I do that? Keep it to myself that is? I have a hard time keeping anything to myself, especially if it's something I enjoy? But if I were to get criticism on what I blog, would that then cause me to not blog, OR would I not care as I have to let go some time right?

Okay enough list for now. Criticism is welcome, as it's the only way to grow. Advice, also welcome, maybe not followed but always welcome!

awe geeesss...so much for a graceful return

okay so here we go again. I have finally procured the tools needed to enable my blogging lazieness to become something of an historical hiccup if you will....does that even make any sense.

Let's try again. I am now the proud owner of a laptop that functions! I can now wirelessly access stuff and sites and things.

How exciting is that? Pretty exciting I guess as I am sitting here with eyes closing from exhaustion at 0021 hours typing out to my long neglected blog.

And I'm trying to decide if I want to share it with others who know me or let it remain obscure ...I mean really who, other than me, wants to hear me blather on about nonsense....well I don't even really want to hear it- but hey, I have to listen to me...don't I?

good night blog world hopefully I'll return with something wittier or more insightful (or something that makes more sense) tomorrow!