As a mom who works to keep herself and her family in the life to which they are accustom I have these moments where I look around and go "Hey, what happened?"
I know, I know parents, all around the world working or not have these moments too and I'm not special in my horror that all of a sudden my babies aren't babies anymore - but heck this is my blog so indulge me.
I mean look, I remember the diapers, the teething, the walking, the falling, the pre K first days and all the other firsts, I was there I know they happened. But every so often there's just a moment, a brief gut wrenching heart breaking moment where you go - oh gosh, I didn't know, I want to go back, I want to put it all on hold and freeze for a bit please and thank you life - just hold on a darn minute with your rushing.
We all do the best we can with the time and resources we are given. And I'm sure I'm not the only one to stop and say "Wait, is it enough, am I doing it right?" These moments of self doubt and concern are always looming, but so glaringly noticeable only when you, let's say, pull up the school supply list in preparation for another year of school and realize that your oldest is in FIFTH GRADE and has only this year and next before he goes on to MIDDLE SCHOOL and your youngest is in THIRD GRADE and already half way to middle school. WAIT A STINKIN MINUTE!!!!! I'm not READY......
But alas, they are, and so must I. I see them every day so the changes aren't really as noticeable until things like school supply lists point out that hey, yup they are your loveable huggable cuddly children, but they are older then you think.
A mother's lament of sorts I suppose. Now off to prepare for another year of school!
That's all.
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